Thursday Things - Transforming

So I watched the 2nd Transformers movie with my Hubby tonight and actually really enjoyed it. Plus, both kids were asleep for the entire movie, first time since having my assistant over 2 years ago.

Another transformation was in our lounge room. I kept working away trying to get some order from the chaos and now I can actually see some of our carpet. It's ugly and I can't wait to be able to get new flooring (not much point until we're through toilet training with B-man). But we can see it! I'm finally starting to think of my sewing room as B-man's room, and I'm constantly trying to figure out ways of getting their rooms to only hold their things, but it's not going to happen.

But, the real transformation happened with me today. I was so cranky this morning. My assistant was really getting to me. I don't know if it's terrible twos or sleep deprivation (mine) or something else, but it just got to me big time this morning and I broke down. I couldn't stop the tears from coming and neither could she. We had a big hug and she told me she was sorry and she loves me and then for the rest of the day she was better. My whole attitude changed when she offered to dry up the dishes, though. I don't know why, because it's annoying having to pass particular items to her to be dried and then put away, but it lifted my mood and the day just got easier. After that point everything went smoothly. I made dinner for the kids, then made dinner for us (hubby worked late) while the kids were eating, then I did a heap of tidying, not that you can really tell, but we can. It just worked out better than usual. I've been finding it more and more difficult to be positive with my assistant. It probably has to do with my lack of sleep, but I really started to feel depressed, like I wasn't able to move. I was having trouble getting out of bed and doing normal things. But it all just went away today. Hopefully it will stay away too. I love her and B-man and I really want to be a good example for them, so that they will be able to live a Godly life.

Anyway, I really should get to bed and try and change my sleepless life.

Night!